Seeking Personal Growth?
Today i woke with several questions in mind, but i will keep it brief. I believe that i am in a never ending circle. Borned a pisces, hypersensative, aloof but people person. I feel unhappy or trapped daily. The people around me are mostly draining. Its fuuny that i lost my virginity at 21. Had my son at 23. Me and his father are no longer together but remain friends and I help him raise his children with his current wife. We all mesh well. I have dated both male and female. 2 males and 3 females. All of my relationships have started the same, head over heels only for me to be told, i am to different and out there, but yet we all are friends. I ask why am i good enough for friendship but not a relationship. I am scared to death to meet anyone. I stay in my lane and safety zone. I know i am not suppose to be bitter in anyway, but i believe that i am. I am not bi sexual, because i only deal with one sex at a time. I dont go back and forth. I have no plans of dating anymore women, at all.
2 days ago – 5 days left to answer.
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2 days ago

Recently the last guy that I dated, all was well but then he would provoke arguments, so I started to distance myself and just not deal with him. It was classic to what i already experienced in previous relationships. But yet he will text or call and want to talk or ask whats going on with me. We both have established that he is seeing other people, but why is it that him and the others could not state that and move on. Why hurt me. So, i am scheduling an appointment with a therapist this week. I feel isolated and worthless. I know its easy to say move on and stop holding on to past hurts. I am trying to do this, but i am unsuccessful. What can i do. This is not my nature to feel angry. I am a happy person. But I feel numb. Any advice would be helpful.